on your knees

what did i do on my winter vacation? other than get paid to not be at work for a week?

not much!

so this second drawing...it's weird. i mean, it's as close to drawing in my "old" style that i've probably come to in a long time. and my old style...i don't know. looks something like that. i guess: more composition, which i'm sort of throwing out the window lately. i'm into the "if it doesn't belong there, throw it in" mindset lately, but let's be honest here: nothing i'm doing is particularly daring.

i'm a poseur!

i'm just drawing for the book now. that would be the second one. because i still haven't had the first one printed. and why wouldn't i work on the second one if the first one isn't finished? why wouldn't i! you know, it may never happen, and everything i do is for something so when i say things like, it's for _____, i'm really just talking out my ass.

for real: it's all for nothing. that is to say, it doesn't really matter what it's for because it's nothing in the grand scheme of things. cosmically speaking, of course.

sooner or later, that's all i'm going to say.

blow out comb

book cover for the, erm, book i guess.

at some point i thought: i have to stop adding these lines, you know? it was going to be a little more restrained, maybe to match the contents. (older stuff, mostly, simpler style) but then...well, it kind of got away from me.

seriously, who am i fooling? it looks like everything else i do. why pretend i was going for something else? silly.

anyway, this is the idea for the book: older drawings, a few more recent ones. i had thought about just scrapping the older stuff since it's...a little different. and who cares right? but then i thought i could just get it out of my system and start over and not do one of these things every 10 years. i mean, that makes a little more sense, right?

also, i don't actually own any copies of a fair amount of stuff that i've done over the last 3 or 4 years. if it was too big to fit on my scanner, then i only took a crappy photo of it and was waaay too lazy to stitch the scans together. or, there was color involved (i had planned on just doing a book of color drawings but decided it was too expensive) and those drawings weren't going to work for a black and white book. or...i'm kind of stupid and i probably just dumped whatever hi-res i had off my HD to make space.

i know: silly.

don't ask me when this is coming out, i have no idea. it's been off and on for a couple years now. but i figured if i at least did the cover then it might motivate me to wrap it up. because, really, now that the cover is finished, it's pretty much wrapped up.

good morning, sunshine.

yeah, finally got off my lazy ass and did something. this (specifically) is for i want your skull, but there's never any telling that it'll get used. but everything i've submitted so far has, so i have no complaints. it's kind of loose, in a poorly composed cartoon panel kind of way. please keep in mind that i have mr. magoo-like depth of field. mr. magoo haters to the side!

this guy gets it.

white. space.

wasn't able to touch this for a few days, and was going a little nuts figuring i only had a little more to do on it but couldn't. but once i erased the pencil lines i decided...that i was finished. i know! look how much white space there is! i can't believe it, either!

i also realize that it looks like a mutating shrimp.

they were supposed to be elephants.

maybe.

i can't even think of a title for this one. the only thing that was bouncing around in my head was "fuck fest."

giant, fucking, mutating shrimp. in a festive setting.

look at all that white space!

08.18.09

after work, before bed. why not? also, after work, before bed, and with a beer. yes, i drink beer before i go to bed. yes, that is in the am.

on a completely unrelated note, i'm sooo excited to be having roladin for dinner tonight. haven't had it in years and it's sooo good. my dear sainted mum will be preparing it, which is even better. i never realized it was a german dish, and i've neither have i had it outside of my mom's cooking. always wondered how it would be made by someone else. not that i don't like my mom's roladin, i obviously do (obviously), but it's not, like, a common restaurant menu item. but, how many german restaurants have i been to? uh...none? weird.

08.17.2009

everyday i'm doing this! everyday!

ok, my new work schedule pretty much just makes me sleep and, er, work. and the worst part about it is that i'm not even working as much, just sleeping more. sad.

but i did spend 2 hours today drawing stuff and that's some kind of personal record for me. and that's 2 hours straight. i know, you think it's funny, but i can't sit still at a drawing table for usually more than an hour at a time.